I have suffered from mental illness since age six. I have been diagnosed with major depression with psychotic features, PTSD, borderline personality disorder and dissociative disorder. Despite these diagnoses, I am very high functioning. I maintain a professional career, I have healthy relationships and I manage to care for my body. I currently work very hard to manage my symptoms with the aid of an excellent therapist.
Ever since I began to menstruate my symptoms of PMS have been characterized by a marked increase in my mental illness symptoms. I suddenly become extremely depressed, anxious and paranoid. I’ll cry desperately for days and I think about dying. (I do not make a plan – the thoughts just occur to me). I feel an excruciating amount of emotional pain that I find overwhelming. I can go from stable to a complete wreck once I enter about the last week and a half of my menstrual cycle. It’s a tremendous burden to have to go through this each month and as a result I am not able to enjoy my life much of the time.
My other PMS symptoms include back pain, headaches, insomnia, irritability, fatigue, slow cognition, sore breasts, bloating.
Any insight you may offer is greatly appreciated.
Solange